Insomniac...

Insomnia is most frequently defined by an individual's report of sleeping difficulties. While the term is sometimes used in sleep literature to describe a disorder demonstrated by polysomnographic evidence of disturbed sleep, insomnia is often defined as a positive response to either of two questions: "Do you experience difficulty sleeping?" or "Do you have difficulty falling or staying asleep?"......

Lying down in the bed, waiting for being embraced by Hypnos till morning, well that's the most disgusting thing. When i start feeling comfortable in his company, it's the time for Helios, to show his might. Sleep was one of my favorite activities. Now i just can't do that....... I had often used vodka as a form of self-treatment of insomnia to induce sleep. But it's not practical now. I don't have the company for that here in Hyderabad. The search for a substitute led me to Zolfresh, Zolpidem (N,N,6-Trimethyl-2-(4-methylphenyl)-imidazo[1,2-a]pyridine-3-acetamide), containing tablets. It is a prescription medication used for the short-term treatment of insomnia, as well as some brain disorders. It is a short-acting nonbenzodiazepine hypnotic that potentiates gamma-aminobutyric acid (GABA), an inhibitory neurotransmitter, by binding to GABA_A receptors at the same location as benzodiazepines. It works quickly (usually within 15 minutes) and has a short half-life (2–3 hours). Yesterday was the first time that i have ever tried such a sleep enhancing drug. I didn't feel anything bad. Had a nice sound sleep, didn't even hear my alarm and Kareem woke me up at 5:30 am. Mind you, i had to go to class at 6:00 am. But when i came to know the side-effects, i was shocked. Some users take zolpidem recreationally for some of these side-effects, notably sedation, hallucinations and euphoria. Zolpidem becomes addictive if taken for extended periods of time, due to drug tolerance and physical dependence or the euphoria it can sometimes produce. Under the influence of the drug, patients may take more zolpidem than is necessary, due to either forgetting that one has already taken a pill or knowingly taking more than the prescribed dosage. Some users have reported unexplained sleepwalking while using zolpidem, and a few have reported driving, binge eating, sleep talking, and performing other daily tasks while sleeping.God!!!! Well i don't know whether i'll continue using it or not. Lemme tell you, sleeplessness, it's a really miserable condition...

 Courtsey- Sanjay Lal Satish Menon aka Kanjappan....

Straight from my heart.

Waiting at a railway station, to bid farewell to your best friend, whom you may not meet again in the rest of your life -  well, that's an odd feeling. When i sat there waiting for the train to Indraprastha, i travelled four years back along the memory lane. I started recollecting all those good and bad memories. Let me tell you memories are very dangerous beings. I had a lot of good friends. She is one of them, perhaps the best among them. The first feature that I noticed when I saw her was her round, black, beautiful eyes.  I never in my life saw such captivating eyes. My fascination for her eyes turned into an obsession towards her. It was slowly becoming a kind of addiction and I was driven into the limits of insanity. Through the death’s veils it drove me closer and closer to the edge. I was close to devil, but it was the guardian angel, pushed me out of darkness, gave me air to breathe and water to drink. Spread her wings to shield me. Showed me the path towards light. Let me tell you I really enjoyed that detention. I just wanted to see ojos asi once more. Suddenly I was brought back to the senses, thanks to a railway announcement. I had to go to the next platform. Suddenly what to tell her became my matter of concern. I was always worried about my behavior, my unpredictable nature. I had hurt everyone, but it was she, who had suffered a lot more. I was walking along the platform, thinking thinking about the past, also the future, that what I had to tell her. Suddenly my phone rung, it was her calling me. I walked towards the compartment. She had taken a great risk in meeting me then as she was travelling with her cousin. Ithe train came to a halt and she came out. I stood before her not knowing what to utter. The two minutes passed like seconds, the train started to move. Shook her hands, looked into her eyes, watched her smile perhaps for the last time, thanking for the best days of my life that she had given me……… This was the best moment in my life and perhaps most melancholic. Now I had to live my life without no one else other than the almighty himself to support me knowing all my dirty little secrets. I had to get used to a life without it. Had to assent to the universal truth “life is not a bed of roses”.....